Sweaty palms, ew.

Hi, this is myself, with my room, my little cozy zone.
I've got a few situation to handle, and am pondering over a few things. :(

Speaking of my room, there, there. Its time i sort them out in the best position ever. (I hope.)

I'm also currently facing a problem when i am suppose to attend a friend's party, themed black/white dress. I have a black dress, but its too ugly. I also have a baby doll black top that looks kinda decent, but it seemed too casual to go with anything. :( Mommy isn't exactly fond of me getting a new little black dress because she knows i am a boy most of the time.My current solution is to borrow something from Cousin Pris. I hope i manage to get something from her which will solve this problem of mine.

Yet secretly it would please me if its possible for me to get a little black dress, a sexy black heels, some make up tools like eye shadows, dark coloured lip stick, and a bottle of nice smelling perfume.

I wasn't like that. I couldn't care much about heels or slapping powder on face, i just wanted to be myself, even if i couldn't fit in. I didn't need much fanciness back than. Not that i'm trying to fit in now, But, I guess its the self loving part? Thats making me over material and all that? It sounded so wrong that i am all over material and whats not, but, isn't that who i am told to be? Yes, i've lost my character i guess. Thank you to everyone who contributed. The goods and the bads. This is what i've been pondering about.

Had a shopping session with Mommy today, got myself a boy cut undie(yeah). My mom did my hair great yesterday. I'm loving it. We also found a slip on which might be to my liking. It's really great to enjoy some of the time with my mom right before my last week of holiday ends. (:

Anyway, i also just got myself two Sex band. Thicker than the usual ones i wore. I will carry on to add on to my collection of black bands on my arm, providing these thick ones won't break.

Who reads this still anyway? I also realised i haven't been bloggin much, ever since i started to thnk through the whole frigging life thing.