Actually, wouldn't it have been better if it really never ever started? Isn't it more aching that something was once yours and its no longer?

I'm so lethargic. As if without a spirit. All i want is to sleep. And pass time, or maybe even not. I don't know what i want. I know what i want, but i know what i want will never happen. I want to ___ too. Everything _____. I don't even have the energy to teach and just one more will be added to my list.

And adding on the facts that i do not have much friends and having only a few friends whom i can hang out with. Hmmmmm. I don't think i have much to hang out. I want my next to be someone who share a group of common friend with me. I think that would help a much more, and the next to know most, and do most for me. Cause i'm really this fragile piece of glass sheet.

I'm having a headache now. Dave. You there?