Sweaty palms, ew.

Hi, this is myself, with my room, my little cozy zone.
I've got a few situation to handle, and am pondering over a few things. :(

Speaking of my room, there, there. Its time i sort them out in the best position ever. (I hope.)

I'm also currently facing a problem when i am suppose to attend a friend's party, themed black/white dress. I have a black dress, but its too ugly. I also have a baby doll black top that looks kinda decent, but it seemed too casual to go with anything. :( Mommy isn't exactly fond of me getting a new little black dress because she knows i am a boy most of the time.My current solution is to borrow something from Cousin Pris. I hope i manage to get something from her which will solve this problem of mine.

Yet secretly it would please me if its possible for me to get a little black dress, a sexy black heels, some make up tools like eye shadows, dark coloured lip stick, and a bottle of nice smelling perfume.

I wasn't like that. I couldn't care much about heels or slapping powder on face, i just wanted to be myself, even if i couldn't fit in. I didn't need much fanciness back than. Not that i'm trying to fit in now, But, I guess its the self loving part? Thats making me over material and all that? It sounded so wrong that i am all over material and whats not, but, isn't that who i am told to be? Yes, i've lost my character i guess. Thank you to everyone who contributed. The goods and the bads. This is what i've been pondering about.

Had a shopping session with Mommy today, got myself a boy cut undie(yeah). My mom did my hair great yesterday. I'm loving it. We also found a slip on which might be to my liking. It's really great to enjoy some of the time with my mom right before my last week of holiday ends. (:

Anyway, i also just got myself two Sex band. Thicker than the usual ones i wore. I will carry on to add on to my collection of black bands on my arm, providing these thick ones won't break.

Who reads this still anyway? I also realised i haven't been bloggin much, ever since i started to thnk through the whole frigging life thing.

This shoe is the perfect Sneaker I've been looking for.
Or even this.

Oh dear oh dear. :( I am also unsure if i should get a Converse or a Vans one.)
Because...

I have a $50 voucher, and i am sure i can use it on Converse, but unsure if i can use if on Vans.
I want to make use of the $50 voucher to get my shoe. or should i not?
Assuming that i am, the possible one that i could get would be the one at Converse, a light grey velcro sneaker, or the same design, but a maroon one(with no lining?!) Or any laced sneaker at Converse, (but I'm looking for something easy to put on).
The Converse Velcro sneakers are the only velcro pairs that i have encounter. But they are not the better looking ones. and the colour? They suckk.

Vans one are so pretty, but i am unsure where to i get them, and what's concerning, also, is that. I may not be able to use the voucher.

These two would be the ideal pair.

Should i get the velcro strap sneakers? Or classic slip on? Or lacey? (slip on with lace) Or the classic converse canvas laced shoe? Converse's slip on are, awful.

I know i am extremely picky. Because i had a lesson on never to buy things on impulse, when i was young. Thus i always make sure i want what i am going to get.

Boo hoo! Wish list. :(

Touch me, I'm sick

I am surprised by myself with the number of online journals i am owning, and the decisions on what to post on which actually.

Yes. Leah.I feel that sometimes i behave exactly like a boy.

Jean begs denim, love will be a life time thing.
Only one person has accesses to most of my journals.
If only all of them are checked everyday. I wonder...

I am also planning to get my tragus pierced again, which on the same day, i'll get an a3 file, which should hold all of my first semester work, and an oversized plastic bag, to fit them and the 3d objects in it, and them, all into a box. Than there's still my room to settle, and the cabinet.

I also need to kill my boredom by getting a job.
Kino/Toysrus/HMV/POPULAR?!
I don't know what else.
No sales, No F&B.
Who would be a perfect company for this? Hmmmm.

Job hunting? Shopping? Piercing? All in a day?

I also need a shoe. A shoe. A shoe. A shoe. Picky Shoe for a pair of picky feet.
I also want to get a jumper/ a short, Denim.
I also want to get a sling bag. Speaking of bags. Let me sort my room first.
I also need a calendar/a phone with organiser, very very very badly.
I need many things.

I feel like vomiting.
What have i done this time?

I guess this is few of my most decent post in forever.(edited with additional text many times)

So, i was aware of the group of boys meeting a few caucasians, Wesley's pm was saying that one of them is Damien Duff. I didn't know him, so i did a research. Indeed he is the new castle's soccer player. Too Bad i'm not a soccer fan, or should i say, lucky i'm not one since i wasn't there!

I wonder its the real him that they met. Or maybe Meow is just making a damn joke. Haha.

Anyway, this is Damien Duff.

Stress level is reaching the highest peak. I don't know why are my eyes so puffy. ):
I've got work to do.

Hehex

Am back from St. John.
Need to tidy myself.

Need to finish my work, and before that, i need a shower.
Photo Montage. :(
Shall be back.

Cannabis

For anyone who will ever miss me during this one day that i will be away to another island. (if anyone reads this)
Haha. I'm not trying to be like one of them(oft), for i dont dress like them much often, and for i looked better than most of them when i am dressed up.(i know, self proclaim.)

I will miss everything here. Esp..... the bed.

^^

Recently am obsessed over this guy?
this guy, this guy? This guy.

This very guy.^^